Not Feeling The Colors.

I changed the background to gray :) It's dark gray so there's hardly a difference.

I don't like it. But i don't really like black either.

What should i do?

Use blog skins? But those things confuse me. Eek! ~_~

My internet wasn't working yesterday so i had to sit in my living room for the first time since i moved here. It was fun! We listened to my roommate's old records...


... and spoke japanese! I kid you not. One of my roommates is japanese and his friend from japan came over. Fun times! I got to practice my japanese. So it was good! :)

And for the first time, 80% of us who live in the apartment were home at the same time. Yay!

Yes. I get over-excited over stupid things. Hehehee!

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I had a fun but tiring day today. But fun. And i definitely over-ate. *shame shame* hehe

My internet is still broken. It was working fine this morning and i was excited. But it's not working anymore. I have to connect the cable directly to my computer. And sit in the living room. I feel like i'm living in a dorm. Haha.

I bought a pink dice to hang on my phone! Me like. It's the pooofy kind. I don't know how to explain it.

Remember how i used to have this blue one in high school that i bring everywheeeere?! Hehehe. I'm such a dork. But i like it. Dice, i mean. Not being a dork :P But maybe that too! I dunno. Pfft.

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Good lines from songs:-

"Life can be so simple if we all just learn to pray"
Every Little Thing by Hawk Nelson

"If you don't mind would you tell me all your hopes and fears and everything that you believe in. Would you make a difference in the world? I'd love for you to take me into a deeper conversation."
Deeper Conversation by Yuna

"Son, fear is the heart of love."
A Lack of Color by Death Cab For Cutie

"You and me, we couldn't stand being normal. That's why we make a good you and me."
You and Me by Plain White T's

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Loud loud party next door. I wish the walls were thicker. But the music makes me feel like I'm in Space :) :) :) So i guess it's not all thaaaat bad :P

maybe i won't die when i'm 40.

Not too long ago, i had to let go my dream of being a hobo coz i just wasn't cut out for it. And i speak from experience.

And now, i think i have to give up my dream of dying at 40 :(

I know i can't really dictate it. Heck, i might die tomorrow. *knock knock wood* But 40 was the goal :)

I wanted to have achieved everything i want to do in life and.. well.. die. Happy! :)

But now that i'm at the "mid-point" *gasp!*, all my dreams seem so far away. There are so many things to do and so little time!

Now i know why my uncle was sooooo upset when he turned 40. He haven't achieved half the things that he wanted to.

I hope that i can at least achieve 2/3rds of what i want to do by the time i'm 40. I'll be happy enough :) :) :)

I just need to focus focus hocus pocus!

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On a lighter note, I was feeling very upset yesterday (Haha. Irony. I'm a fan.). I really don't know why. I think it's PMS. Heh heh.

And it made me almost break my fast. (I'm practicing Lent this year) I feel like i'm hanging by a thread and it's only been 6 days! How did Jesus do 40 days? How does anyone do 40 days?

But God, being who He is, is always good. And despite being upset yesterday, He still managed to give me a bounce in my step when i thought about chocolate croissant and tea :) Yummm..

He gave me the peace i needed when i went to bed. The nightmares I've been having for the past week didn't come back.

I just LOVE being His little girl. And jumping around in my cute little pink TuTu to bring a smile onto His face.


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I don't usually post lyrics, but here's a good one ;)

Jesus loves me this I know,
For the bible tells me so,
Little ones to him belong,
They are weak but He is strong.

Yes, Jesus loves me.
Yes, Jesus loves me.
Yes, Jesus loves me.
The bible tells me so.

Jesus loves me when I'm good,
When I do the things I should,
Jesus loves me when I'm bad,
Though it makes him very sad.

Yes, Jesus loves me.
Yes, Jesus loves me.
Yes, Jesus loves me.
The bible tells me so.

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It stings every time I read it. I don't want to make Him sad.

"Wash your socks clean clean!"

Falling Slowly.

Omg! I looooove HyunJoong & HwangBo! You guys won't know what i'm talking about but it's like a Korean Reality TV kinda show where celebrities are like paired up and they have to pretend that they are a married couple. The show is called "We Got Married". And you get to see all the sweet things the "husbands" will do for the "wives". It's so sweeeeeeeet! Makes me feel like getting married to a stranger! Hahahaha.

Anyway, HyunJoong sang this song for HwangBo. I used to love love love this song. It was like on loop in my playlist. Hehehe. The lyrics are so extremely sweet. So.. random stranger.. hello there! If you want to marry me, you know what to do ;)

Falling Slowly - Glen Hansard

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

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Glen Hansard was at NYFA! He just graduated when i got there! I got to see him a few times.. and he even talked to me once and i didn't know who he was so i was like kinda rude. Heh. It was a rough day. But yeahh.. still cool.. hehehe

And i dunno why i keep blogging about stupid random stuff. Gotta stop. Heh

I is super sleepy now. Gotta sleep. Nite nite.

Feed my cbox plz. I think he is hungry :(