for real, for real and not for fake.

I'm switching over :)

Here!

Finally.

No more fickle. No more scared. No more self-conscious.

Taking this baby by the hand and RUNNING with it ;)

Haha. I'm sleepy. That explains it, no? Maybe a little? Heh.

Theme song for today: Jason Mraz's The Remedy.

Peace out, guys! See you at my new thought bubble home :)

Comments would be nice every now and again ;) Just sayin'

this is my call, i belong to you.

It was really sunny today! :) And warm too!

I was happy :)

But not only because of that. Remember my post about Easter? How i was struggling with the idea of it?

Today during worship, it suddenly hit me. It really is worthy of celebration. Woohoo! Sorry, i'm a little slow, i know. Rumor has it that i was dropped on my head many a time as a child. I blame gravity.

Anyway, explanation time.

I guess something we tend to forget when we think of Jesus is that He was human. We imagine him being this man in a shiny white robe that sparkles and blinds, floating around healing one sick person after another. *insert awe music*

But He was a human being just like us. He felt hunger, temptation, loneliness and had a need to be loved too. He was made out of flesh and blood and felt pain the same way that we do, physical and emotional.

The main thing that came into my head today was Garden of Gethsemane. So i read it up, in all 4 gospels.

In Matthew 26: 38, "He told them, 'My soul is crushed with grief to the point of death. Stay here and watch with me.'" In 26: 39, he goes on to say, "My Father! If it is possible, let this cup of suffering be taken away from me. Yet, I want your will, not mine."

In Mark 14: 36, "'Abba, Father,' he said, 'everything is possible for you. Please take this cup of suffering away from me. Yet, I want your will, not mine.'"

In Luke 22: 44, "He prayed more fervently, and he was in such agony of spirit that his sweat fell to the ground like great drops of blood."

John 17 is a really good one. I'm not gonna type it all out. But read it if you will and/or want to. It's good. Very... enlightening.

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Do you see how i see it now?

This man was going to die. And he fully understood the weight of it all, the pain that he had to bear. He was scared. He wanted out, if it was possible. But more than anything, he wanted the will of his Father to be done.

Can you imagine his desperation that "his sweat fell to the ground like great drops of blood". Imagine this mental image.. Close up to this man's forehead, he is kneeling face down on the ground in desperation, crying out to his Father for help. So desperate that the sweat that is forming on his forehead is piling up to big droplets, heavy enough for gravity to pull it's weight down. That was how desperate he was!

I found the whole thing very symbolic. Although it does not even come close to what Jesus had to experience, but don't we all go through this?

Don't we all have moments when we are just kneeling face down on the ground before God, praying that he will relieve us from our pain/ fears/ worries?

So anyways, cut the preach-y short, Jesus went through with it, bore the pain in full force (I cannot even begin to imagine what that was like), and well, died.

BUT here comes the good news! :) He resurrected! It's good! The sun is shining again! People have been set free! He returned to his original glory! Hearts are on fire! All is happy clappy! :)

And THAT is why we celebrate Easter.

I'm glad.

Next year, par-taaaaaaaay! :) :) :) Wanna join me?

Peace Out! Forgive the preach-y please ;)

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All verses taken from NLT. All emphasis added by me.

hey, lovers!

despite advice from many people, 5 in total, asking me not to do it, i started a wordpress blog :P

i have like 2 posts on my wordpress blog.

i still can't figure it out and shall stick with blogger for now :)

the only reason why i was gonna switch was because i can't take this boring theme! and all of blogger's boring themes! and i don't have the brains or the time to sift through a million and 3 different blog skins :P

blogger is so much more simple and makes life easier :) but i think that wordpress' gazillion functions makes it very attractive too. we'll see ;)

on a side note, no, i cannot blog without smileys :) how else will you read my emotions? gosh.

i was told i was hard to read. i hope it's in a good way though.

But how can it possibly be good?

i don't know. maybe?

This is the wordpress address : http://raycheerache.wordpress.com

I'm not sure if i'm switching yeeeeT!

Having major writer's block. Or actually, life block.

Everything just seems to be on a stand still.

My motivation and passion seem to have left me.

Maybe it's just today.

Maybe it really is the time for change. The time to just drop everything and start anew.

Maybe it starts with a new blog.

Something definitely needs to change. Or i WILL shoot myself.

Peace OUt! :)

I may be sad today but i still love y'all! :)

idealistic idealisms.

Confidence, i read, is the problem.

But i think that maturity is.

Like the song Your Head's Too Big by the Ditty Bops goes, "Your head's so big and tall, i'm surprised your thoughts are small."

Yes, a confident person will not be ashamed of who he/ she is. But will they ever know how to draw the line between confidence and self-love?

Yes, confidence is attractive. But what if confidence seeps into arrogance?

I feel that's where maturity steps in and interjects. I need maturity. And i daresay, even before confidence. But it's hard to believe that confidence is not where maturity is :)

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"Live through this and you won't look back."
Your Ex-lover is Dead by Stars

"Your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures."
Nothing Better by The Postal Service

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i feel like switching over to wordpress ~_~ just coz it looks better. i dunno. should i?

but i've been using blogger for so many years! and i'm a loyal person! hehe :P

the concept of it all.

So today i was talking to a friend who never goes to church.

It was like 2 in the morning. And i'm not usually up this late when there's church in the morning but i was too full to go to sleep. Long story short, i was talking to my friend. And he says, "I have to go soon, Rachel. I have to wake up to go to church for Easter Service."

My eyes almost popped out of my head.. No. Out of it's socket? Maybe that's the better way to say it.

Easter has never been a big deal for me. (Oh no! What crazy talk is this?)

To me, the great thing about Easter is that someone created a Bunny who hides our pretty chocolate eggs.

Don't get me wrong. I know the theory behind Easter. It's a day of celebration. It's the day that Jesus resurrected :)

It's a day to remind us of His goodness and mercy and grace. Yes.

But shouldn't we be reminded of all that daily? Well, if not daily, constantly? (I admit that i don't do it as often as i should. But i am reminded of it more than ONCE a year.)

I don't know. For the past few days, this is what i have been struggling with. The idea of Easter.

Should it just be ONE day where we get all religious and go to church because Jesus died and rose again, that's cool and we should give him props?

Shouldn't it be submitting to His grace everyday?

Maybe someone can give me some insight? I don't have the answer or even a clue on this one.

Perhaps i will get some insight tomorrow at church :P i can't be missing Easter Service now can i? Hahaha.

For now, I'm just going to sleep and pray that Easter Service will do miracles in my friend's life. That he will give more than props to Jesus but perhaps maybe his life too? :)

Peace out!

i bookmarked the page that said;

"Eve was not taken out of Adam's head to top him, neither out of his feet to be trampled by him, but out of his side to be equal with him, under his arm to be protected by him, and near his heart to be loved by him." - Matthew Henry

Yay? Yay. Yay!

It's true though. That's why sometimes i don't understand girls that control their boyfriends or just their guy friends in general.

...Eve was not taken out of Adam's head to top him...

And i also don't understand girls who are too scared to stand up to certain guys in their lives. Or that will do or "sacrifice" so many things for the guy that they "love".

...neither out of his feet to be trampled by him...

I think that we should realize the truth and stop receiving the information we get from the world as rules that we should live by.

The truth is, we were made "...out of his side to be equal with him, under his arm to be protected by him, and near his heart to be loved by him..."

And this is bringing things back to perspective, back to it's original glory. The glory it was intended to be.

I think we should just let God tell the story instead of trying to write it ourselves. He is good. Very very good. And the outcome would be far greater, more exciting, and far more beautiful than we can ever imagine or expect :) :) :)

That's my God!

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Phew! Long day today.

i want to wear blue.

but i own nothing that's blue. like really blue, y'know.

oh well.

apple juice!

i love LovE LOVE apple juice. i can't explain it. i just do! i walked to a 24 hour deli in the really cold cold cold just to get me some apple juice. and mmmmhmm.. it's good and i'm happy :) :) :) it's filled with vitamin c too!

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i LOVE this song. It's too cute! :)



I realized that so many people are searching for the same thing. Love.

It's funny.

I'm not gonna lie, i am too.

But it's kinda funny that that's what most people are looking for. Why does it seem like we're losing out on something if we don't have this love? Strange.

I'm not talking about love from God or family because most of us have it.

But i'm talking about love, love. Being in love with someone else. Sharing a special relationship with someone else that only the 2 of you own.

The people that write/ sing about love are the awesomest, funniest, smartest and wittiest people i've come across. And i just find it strange that they can't seem to find that perfect someone.

But maybe, just maybe, that perfect someone doesn't exist? And if we just drop those crazy expectations, we'll be able to find that perfect someone?

I refuse to believe that. Ha!

Ok bye!

My Attention Span.

... or the lack thereof.

So i just realized today, more like, agreed with the fact that i have the shortest attention span in the whole universe times 212. Haha! Yes. I'm being a drama queen again. So sue me :P omg. green and pink reminds me of watermelons! whee!

Why I Came To This Conclusion:

1. People constantly tell me how bad my attention span is.
2. Today, I was supposed to wash the hand-cloth in the restaurant. I was kinda excited because I just learned how to do it yesterday and it means that I get to escape the busy-ness of the restaurant. So, i was happily going to the basement, being proud of myself for being handed this huuuuge responsibility, thinking of what a greeeeaaaat hand-cloth-washer i am going to be. I went to the machine, put in all the cloth, and turned it on. *Sigh of relief* "Good job, Rachel.", I say to myself. 2 hours later, i had to take the cloth out of the machine. On the way back to the machine, i realized that i forgot to put in the detergent. *Doink!*
3. Usually when people talk to me, i hear the first 2 words and stare at them as if i'm listening intently. After about 30 seconds, if they're sentence ends with their voice going higher, indicating that it was a question they just asked, i go, "Huh? Whaaaaaat?". Wait. I do that when they say statements too. Haha :P
   
4. In long conversations, i get distracted by the blue sky, clouds in different shapes that tell a story, birds, food, anything around me that's soft, cushy and cuddly. Or the song that is stuck in my head. Or a random incident that happened anytime from 3 minutes to 3 years ago.
5. As I type this, I'm in the middle of reading an email on my hotmail account AND in the middle of replying an email on my gmail account.
6. I have so many other examples but i'm already distracted and can do this no more.

Heheheeee!

The weather was pretty today :) I wish i could have been outdoors the whole day! But i have to work. Oh well.

Daddy told me a story of how hard he had to work when he was my age. So now i'm motivated to do the same. No more complaining! Woo-Hoo!

I miss my parents :( They're always so wise :) :) :)


"Listen to mommy and daddy! They're right most of the time!"

Not Feeling The Colors.

I changed the background to gray :) It's dark gray so there's hardly a difference.

I don't like it. But i don't really like black either.

What should i do?

Use blog skins? But those things confuse me. Eek! ~_~

My internet wasn't working yesterday so i had to sit in my living room for the first time since i moved here. It was fun! We listened to my roommate's old records...


... and spoke japanese! I kid you not. One of my roommates is japanese and his friend from japan came over. Fun times! I got to practice my japanese. So it was good! :)

And for the first time, 80% of us who live in the apartment were home at the same time. Yay!

Yes. I get over-excited over stupid things. Hehehee!

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I had a fun but tiring day today. But fun. And i definitely over-ate. *shame shame* hehe

My internet is still broken. It was working fine this morning and i was excited. But it's not working anymore. I have to connect the cable directly to my computer. And sit in the living room. I feel like i'm living in a dorm. Haha.

I bought a pink dice to hang on my phone! Me like. It's the pooofy kind. I don't know how to explain it.

Remember how i used to have this blue one in high school that i bring everywheeeere?! Hehehe. I'm such a dork. But i like it. Dice, i mean. Not being a dork :P But maybe that too! I dunno. Pfft.

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Good lines from songs:-

"Life can be so simple if we all just learn to pray"
Every Little Thing by Hawk Nelson

"If you don't mind would you tell me all your hopes and fears and everything that you believe in. Would you make a difference in the world? I'd love for you to take me into a deeper conversation."
Deeper Conversation by Yuna

"Son, fear is the heart of love."
A Lack of Color by Death Cab For Cutie

"You and me, we couldn't stand being normal. That's why we make a good you and me."
You and Me by Plain White T's

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Loud loud party next door. I wish the walls were thicker. But the music makes me feel like I'm in Space :) :) :) So i guess it's not all thaaaat bad :P

The Upper East Side.

It's true.

It exists. It's a real community with waaaay too much money.

I haven't mentioned it here but I got a serving job in a japanese restaurant on the upper east side. Yippee! And today was my first day.

It's soooo much work. But i shall not go into details. That will be for another day.

The Upper East Siders or UES-ers, as i like to call them, vary in shape and sizes and.. dum dum dum.. temperament.

Here's a list of the various ones i've encountered:

1. The weirdo who thinks he's all that because he has a company credit card. (Now, don't be confused. He is not a true UES-er. He just works in the neighborhood and likes to imagine being one of them, reserving his "usual spot" at 12pm every afternoon at his favorite japanese restaurant, where he can eat pretentious and expensive food for free and drink his diet coke with his pinky sticking out as he sips from the straw. Oh wait forgive me. His lemon diet coke. And, i kid you not, it's more than one guy. I'm not pin-pointing. A few of these walk in on the same day.)
2. The female lunch time regulars. (Definitely Liquor on the table at some point of the day. Huge engagement rings on their left ring-finger. Scrolling their Blackberries. Designer sweaters that do not flatter them. Hair tied up in pony tail. Gossiping about emails they've received. Nice people.)
3. The Rich College Couple. (Go watch Gossip Girl. Very similar. I personally do not watch GG but have heard much and seen a couple of episodes. So i'm hoping this statement does them justice.)
4. The Perfect Family with 2 kids below 12. (It is definitely every child's (or adults with slightly deprived childhood) dream to be part of this family. Parents with good tempers talking to their children like their adults. Joking around. Happy smiles. Never gets angry even when a certain first-day waitress took the wrong order. Parents who asks their children if they want dessert. Need I say more?)
5. My favorite, the BLACK AmEx card. (Oh, my heart, it just swooned. I touched it. It was in my hands. The Black AmEx card that I've only heard of. I heard you can buy a private jet with this card. It is that amazing. It doesn't even feel like a regular credit card. Private Jet. Black Card. My hands. Do the math.)
6. The People Who Knows They're Rich and Smirks at You Every Chance They Get. (Casually drops the fact that they are wearing a (very hideous, mind you) Versace shirt. Tries ordering sake but does not know what type there are. Names an unknown brand of sake and claims that it exists. Does not know what they want but pretend that they've got the whole menu memorized.)

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Diner Dash has definitely trained me well to work in a restaurant. It's exactly the same. Just that it physically hurts. Hahaha! :P

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Today i feel like doing this. So I did. And here you go.

[Insert Name Here], you can only be the best person you can be. Then, you have to leave the rest of it to God. If God wills it, and if it's in his plan for you, which makes it the best thing for you, it will happen for you. Good things will come. You just have to make sure your heart is in the right place, where God is. And not where your understanding brings you. Not everything your sight shows you is true. The road doesn't end at the vanishing point. It keeps going on and on and on. You don't see past the vanishing point. But God KNOWS what lies beyond the vanishing point. It's along the lines of what you've always dreamed of but better, more amazing, and beyond your WILDEST imagination. Yay! :)

This thought and belief is one of the major reasons why I am always so happy. Even when bad things happen. But these last few months, I have lost sight of it. Let's just say that it was in my blindspot. Hence, many the emo posts.

So now that I see it again, just thought i'd share.

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"Tip MORE!"

Super tired but don't know why i can't sleep. Must be the adrenaline.

:) :) :) Smiles for EVERYONE!!! :) :) :)

There There Here?! What????

Another one of Sarah's tags! Whee! It's super early in the morning. And i don't even know why i'm doing this now instead of the 3 other things in my mind that seems more important right now; getting dressed, preparing breakfast, reading.

But here goes..

Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions.

1. What is your name: Rachel!
   
2. A four letter word: Rain!
   
3. A boy’s name: Rufus! :P
4. A girl’s name: Roxanne!
   
5. An occupation: Rapper! Haha
   
6. A color: Ruby Red! Ha! Double Rs! Beat that!
   
7. Something you’ll wear: Rain boots! I waaaant :(
   
8. A food: Rendang! Yummm!
   
9. Something found in the bathroom: Rack!
   
10. A place: Russia? I don't know why but saying that gives me the chills. Maybe coz it's super cold there.. Heh :P Or maybe it's just super cold in my room! Ha!
    
11. A reason for being late: Rachel's beauty sleep!
    
12. Something you’d shout: Reeeeaaaally?!!!!!
    
13. A movie title: Rushmore!
    
14. Something you drink: Root Bear!
    
15. A musical group: Reel Big Fish! :)
    
16. An animal: Raccoon!
    
17. A street name: Roy Street? I'm sure there's one in NY somewhere! Hahaha
18. A type of car: Race Car!
    
19. The title of a song: Rootless Tree!
    
20. Tag 5 people: Sara, Alina, Sheryl, Jo, Leann

So that's it!

I'm off to make breakfast now! :)

Feel like hugging a giant teddy bear and stay in bed aaaaaall day. My cousin, Cynthia, has one and it's the most comfy and comforting thing to hug! :) :) :)

Back Here Again.

I was just wondering today..

Will anyone really know me?

Do people worry about the same question? Or have most people found that person who knows them and that it's only me who has not?

I want someone to know me so well that that person knows my next move. As unpredictable as i would like to think that i am, i think that if one truly knows me, that person will know.

*I'm saying "know" too many times, the word is starting to not make sense to me. Does that happen to you too? Hehe :P*

When someone knows you, will you finally know yourself?

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I used street chalk! And yes, i drew. Not prettily. But i did :)

It was one of the things that i really really wanted to do in NY. Draw on the streets and i did! Hence, Rachel = Happy.

Rachel could be happier though. Why is it so hard for people to be really content?

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Gosh. So many questions i wish i had the answer to.

"Did Earth Hour make a difference?"

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Yet another emo one. Bear with me. And then give me a teddy bear to hug! Or just a bear hug will do! :P

Loves.

Nuts.

Between 5pm to 10pm on March 25th 2009.

5.00 pm - Hmm.. I have time to kill before my edit lab slot at 7pm.
5.01 pm - *Reads book in park* What pretty weather :)
6.15 pm - Oh no! Finish reading book. Now what? I have 1 more hour.
6.17 pm - *Looks around* *Beam of light from heaven shines upon Barnes&Noble* (It's a book store)
6.18 pm - Ruuuuuun to Barnes&Noble.
6.19 pm - Immediately rides the multiple escalators to my favorite floor. The highest one! With film books, literature, philosophy and other fun stuff! ;)
6.21 pm - *Remembers Andre talking about "The Great Divorce" and Soren Kierkegaard*
6.22 pm - Spots random Soren Kierkegaard book. Picks it up. Looks for "The Great Divorce".
6.24 pm - Finds "The Great Divorce" in front of an empty chair. Score!
6.24 pm - Picks up book and turns around to proceed to chair. Chair taken -__-" I left it for one second. That's how vicious these New Yorkers are with book store chairs.
6.25 pm - Looks for a little corner to hide to read books. Finds an isolated isle. Perfect! Time to get comfy. Sits on floor.
6.26 pm - Opens "Works of Love" by Soren Kierkegaard. Read.
6.27 pm - "Wow." Mouth gaping and everything. And that was just the first page.
6.50 pm - After being so into the entire first chapter, I finally look up from the book to take a breather and let the information sink in.
6.51 pm - Notice that people walking by were staring. Looks around. Looks up. Only to discover 2 giant shelves of gay/ lesbian fiction and kama sutra. *Blush Blush*
6.52 pm - Picks up books and bags and moves to a different spot.
7.30 pm - Stomach growling. I want this book. It's $17 bucks! Maybe i should go to Strand (discount book store)
7.40 pm - Arrive at Strand. Runs to philosophy corner. Hehe. My favorite floor in Strand; basement :)
7.50 pm - THEY DON'T HAVE IT!!! :(
7.52 pm - Browsing around Strand, found many books on my Books To Read Wish List for very very cheap. Thinks, "No No No. Don't be greedy. Come back when you actually have money. Or time to read them for that matter."
7.55 pm - Exited Strand a very sad sad Rachel :(
8.05 pm - Back in Barnes&Noble, Fourth Floor, picks up same book. Looks for chair, sit, and read. Mmmhm :)
8.45 pm - Mune calls to go for dinner. Thinks, "If i go for dinner, i can't buy this book."
8.55 pm - Complains to Mune about book being expensive. Mune says it's not. I secretly smile and scheme to get it.
9.15 pm - Eat cheap dinner :)
9.40 pm - Back in Union Square. Barnes&Noble is still open.
9.41 pm - Ruuuuuns in and purchases book.
9.45 pm - Exited Barnes&Noble a very happy Rachel but a very guilty one too :(

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March 26th 2009.

12.30 am - Reads book happily! :) "This man is so so so smart."

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Why did i just write the longest and stupidest account of a book purchase you ask?

Because i feel so guilty about spending money i don't really have. But at the same time, i think this book is awesome ;)

On the first page,

"Indeed, one can be deceived in many ways; one can be deceived in believing what is untrue, but on the other hand, one is also deceived in not believing what is true; one can be deceived by appearances, but one can also be deceived by the superficiality of shrewdness, by the flattering conceit which is absolutely certain that it cannot be deceived."

And the book is filled with sentences like this. It visits both ends of the spectrum on each matter and makes you think.

Are my actions justified yet? :P

Probably not.

It's a good book though ;)

I'm happy and excited!!! :) :) :)

I'm ill. What people have with DVDs and CDs, I have with books.

And before i leave NY, i'm sooo gonna stock up on all these great books that i can't get in Malaysia.

Did i mention that i might be leaving soon? :(

"Spring is here! Spring is here! Spring is here!"

i wish i could be as awesome as this list. ha!

Here are some things I really want to do. But have not. Simple and achievable ones. Not like my crazy ambitions. Heh.

1. Have a really good conversation over an equally good glass/ bottle of wine with a special someone.
Talking about serious stuff and laughing at silly jokes.
With Death Cab For Cutie playing softly in the background and occasionally getting up to dance :)




2. Running around in the rain with friends.
And giggling my head off, sliding around the wet streets with people I love the most :)


3. Cycling under the clear blue sky on a big green field.
One time alone. And another with company ;)
Just to admire the beauty of creation and to inhale fresh air :)



So that's the list.
Hooray! I hope I can strike at least one of them off this year :)
Oh me oh my. I think i'm actually growing up!
And looking at things realistically. *gasp*

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Because I stalk people on Facebook, i found out that some of my friends are "In A Relationship", to quote the Facebook status. And it made me really excited and happy for them! :)

Some of them are people younger than me and i'm like, "Wahh! They're all grown up!" *smiles to self*

So yeahh, all their happy pictures made my heart smile :) It also made me giggle very loudly when i was using the public computers in NYFA and made heads turn.

But it's all good. Yes, random. So sue me :P

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Life is not awesome right now. (I've only really said this less than 5 times in my life coz I don't like negativity too much) And my trusting in God is really being tested. Hard.

BUT to quote Dory, sometimes we just gotta, "Just keep swimmin' Just keep swimmin"

*wink*

"You aussies, hug a koala bear for me will ya?!" :P

Sleepy time. Loves.

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PS. Today was so so so cold, my teeth hurt when i open my mouth. Heheheee!

he's just not that into you.

Yes. I watched it.

I know i know. WHY?!

I was in the mood for a chick flick. We all get that urge every once in a while. Don't deny it! :P

Anyway, it was good. Not so much the movie. Heh. But the message and it's ability to make me squirm and squeak. Hahaha! I reallly did. So many times. And i was like, "No! No! No! Don't do it!" :P

Good times.

My favorite scene in the movie :)

Basically the movie starts off talking about everything that the book says. All the signs, all the rules. It kinda annoyed me, all the rules. Partly because it's true and mostly because i wished it wasn't true.

But as the movie goes on, it starts challenging everything the book says. And i was like, "oh yeeeaahh."

It tells you to keep hoping. I like that :)

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I wish they told us the truth when we were growing up. Then, we wouldn't be so confused.

If only everything was that simple.

We'd be able to run with the wind, chase the stars, and dance under the moonlight like they promised. Mmmhmm :)

But maybe, just maybe, they didn't lie?

"Sing to me the songs of the stars,
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again,
When it feels like my dreams are so far,
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again."

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Too much "deep" thinking. Something i rarely do because it's hard to keep happy that way :P

That's what i think at least ;)

"Turn off the water when you're brushing your teeth please!"

Feel Like Smiling?

:P

Yes. Very jakun about this youtube video uploading extravaganza. Haha!

But seriously, girls, this will definitely make you smile :) And boys, i think it's something you can relate to. Definitely, maybe? ;)

This version has the lyrics in it. Too lazy to look for it and fill up space here. Heh



Aren't you in a good mood now? :) :) :)

Glad i could help! Heh heh! :P

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Today was not that great a day for me. But the people around me were so happy, it made my heart smile a little too :)

Should definitely smile when the only other option is to cry. Amen. Heh :P

Time will make things better.

To Quote Jay Chou:

"也 許 時 間 是 一 種 解 藥
也 是 我 現 在 正 服 下 的 毒 藥"

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"Use less shampoo when you wash your hair!" :)

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Bye for now!

Definitely need to stop blogging so much and use my time to be more productive. Heheeee!

Peace out! :P

Sticky Stuff!

The mood of my blog has been so solemn lately. I apologize.

But here's something to make you laugh and think. It's an awesome song by Flight of the Conchords :) My favorite part, of course, is when they go.. "The sticky stuff." Heheheheee! Makes me laugh aaaall the time. I don't even know why.



Went for a show today. They sang an awesome rendition of this song. Laughed till i almost pee-ed in my pants! =P

It's so soothing to watch people perform live. And it's so much fun too! :)

Definitely the prefect stress relief. Yay!

I'm happy today :) Good company *wink*Janet*wink* and a good show is always awesome.

"Fatal Flaw by South Jordan is on loop on my computer. Acoustic version thank you very much."

For Therapeutic Purposes Only.

I finally did it. I let go.

I've been having the hardest time moving on from something. A self-destructive obsession.

The crazy thing about obsessions are, you realize that it's there. You know something is wrong. Then, you justify your obsession. Every one tells you that you are hurting yourself. When you realize that it's bad for you, you "quit", only to find ways around your justification and back to said obsession.

I don't know how I did it. Or if i'm even going to last this time. But I hope that I will.

It hurts. It scarred. It took away a big chunk of my time.

But now i'm moving forward. It's good.

Treating my wounds with Hawk Nelson. Mhmm.. :)

Growing up sucks. I just wanna run in the rain and giggle till I fall on my bum bum.

My Tummy Calls Out For Thee.

I have been craving ice cream for the past forever. Not just any ice cream. The Gelato kind :)

Yes. I like being pretentious every once in a while. Heh.

Unfortunately, no one wants to go get any with me coz it's cold. Well, cold schmold. You guys just hate mehh! Hehe. I kid I kid.


I stole some ice-cream from my friend's house yesterday. But it's just not the saaaaaame! *Bursts into hysterical tears*



I haven't seen one of these in a very very long time. I've never seen it here in New York. I waaaaaant! :'(

Oh well. Gelato is pretty :) And it tastes even prettier! :) :) :) Is that enough to tempt someone to go on this excursion with me? :P

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I wanna see stars in the sky! Dang you, pollution! :(


"Stop pollution please! Bring out the stars! Whee!"